So get this. I have my wedding dress. It’s hanging in my guest bedroom right now. Just hanging there, waiting to be worn. But the problem is, it doesn’t fit yet. The straps are WAY too big and the length might be a bit short. So it doesn’t really feel like my dress yet. I love it, but it literally falls off when I have it on. Even though I know it can be altered and those issues can be fixed, I still get the “bride freak out” feeling. I always thought I wouldn’t be that girl because our wedding is so chill and there isn’t much to plan with a destination wedding. But I’m definitely being THAT girl right now. But everything can be fixed, right? RIGHT?!!
Over the weekend, I decided that the bridesmaids are going to wear mauve or blush. Yes, this is the first time in my life that I’ve ever used the word mauve. Either color will do. Which means I need to find both long and short dresses for the girls to choose from…and actually ask all my friends to be bridemaids. It’s hard when they don’t live here. Calling someone is hard, ok? I know, get your life together Juli. Problem is, short dresses aren’t exactly in season right now. I wanted to give my gf’s the short dress choice because after going to my first destination wedding, I noticed the girls were tying up or dragging their dresses everywhere since it was obviously hot as f*ck in Mexico. BUT, I know my thighs will be chaffing away as our wedding reception goes out because my dress is super tight, so maybe they should just be miserable with me? That seems fair.
The fiancé also asked me what he was wearing. I told him, in a slightly freaked out nature, “I don’t know, that’s your problem, not mine!!” I think of it as, he deals with his sh*t, I deal with mine. But that isn’t really how it works, is it? I think him and his boys are going to wear navy blue and grey. I think. How do you people decide this sh*t? I just don’t care. I wish I had all the money in the world to hire someone to plan it all. I just show up and it all looks nice. That’s a reasonable want.
Now for the veil. I want to wear one because there will never be a reason to wear another one in the future. But I’m on the beach, in Jamaica, where there will be wind. And the veil will be either in my face or ripping out of my hair. But I still want it. It makes you feel so bridey. Do I just go for it, knowing 99% of the time it will be annoying AF? Decision made. F*ck it. Going for it. Thanks for talking this out with me. You’re such a great friend.
- ½ cup coconut flour
- ½ cup tapioca flour
- ½ cup maple or coconut sugar
- ½ teaspoon baking soda
- ½ teaspoon baking powder
- ½ tablespoon Primal Palate Apple Pie Spice
- pinch of salt
- 1 apple, cored and diced (I used a pink lady apple)
- ⅓ cup applesauce
- ¼ cup pumpkin puree
- ¼ cup almond milk
- 3 eggs, whisked
- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
- 1 teaspoon lemon juice
- Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.
- In a large bowl, whisk together coconut flour, tapioca flour, baking soda and powder, apple pie spice, salt and apple.
- Then add the rest of the ingredients and mix well until combined.
- Use an ice cream scoop to scoop the mixture into 10 muffin tins (I used a silicone muffin liner).
- In a small bowl, mix together all the ingredients for the streusel. Add about ½-1 teaspoon of the streusel on top of each muffin.
- Bake for 30 minutes. While muffins are baking, make apple cider caramel.
- Let cool slightly before removing from silicone liner. Top each muffin with caramel
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