I’m mad. Like, really f*cking mad. Ok, that’s a lie, I don’t really get mad, I just get sad. So, I’m really f*cking sad. My face was finally getting better, finally looking like something was changing and my face was starting to play nice, but NO. No, no,no. It ain’t playin’ nice no mo’. My face has freaked out. Like OMG Ihateyousomuchjuli. Iwantyoutostaysingleforever. Andidefinitelydontwantanyonetofindyouattractive. Ever.
You, my face, are a straight up b*tch.
Ugh, I’m going to get so many emails about my dirty mouth now. I’ll save you the time…please don’t send them.
Anywho, I’m having one of those days of feeling absolutely hopeless. I don’t know what to do. I clean up my diet and it gets a little bit better, then it goes back to normal. I change up my face cleansing routine and it gets a little better, then goes back to normal. I get off birth control, I stay on birth control. I take fish oil, I don’t take fish oil. I eat more fat, I eat less fat. I don’t eat dark chocolate, I do eat dark chocolate. I get facials, I don’t get facials. You get what I’m throwin’ out? I try everything, but in the end my face has full control, and I am left staring in the mirror with tears in my eyes, choking back the egg of frustration that sits in my throat.
Just today, I started taking the probiotic saccharomyce boulardii which was recommended by Liz of Cave Girl Eats. I also am getting cod liver oil soon to start trying that as well. And making sure all sugar and nuts are cut from my diet. It’s just so annoying that my mind has to be filled with thoughts of how ugly I am or how I wish I could improve my skin. That’s dumb. It should be filled with cookbook thoughts, and Christmas gift thoughts, and food thoughts. But no, the face has won.
So here’s my question out of utter frustration and anguish…do I try acutane? Do I face the fact that I may be incredibly depressed, moody, and upset for months because of the drug? Do I face the fact that I may have to take the drug even though my face and other body parts will literally dry up and peel off? Do I face the fact that it may not even work? I don’t know what to do, but I’m obviously upset enough to blab all about it and want some of your advice. So, advise me.
On a more positive note, you NEED to try these muffins. They are DELICIOUS.
Morning Glory Muffins (nut free option)
- Yield: 9 1x
Ingredients
- 1 apple, peeled and cored, shredded
- 1 large carrot, peeled
- 1/2 cup sunflower seed butter
- 1 cup pepitas
- 3 eggs, whisked
- 1/2 cup coconut oil, melted
- 1/4 cup raisins
- 1/4 cup pecans, roughly chopped (optional for nut free version)
- 1 tablespoon cinnamon
- 1 tablespoon raw honey
- 1/4 teaspoon baking soda
- pinch of salt
Instructions
- Preheat your oven to 350 degrees.
- Now add your pepitas to a small saucepan over medium heat with a tablespoon of fat. I used coconut oil.
- Cook for 3-5 minutes, moving around lots so they don’t burn and so they cook on all sides.
- While your pepitas are roasting, add your apple and carrot to your food processor with the shredding attachment. If you don’t have a food processor, use a grater to shred your apple and carrot.
- Add your apple and carrot to a bowl along with your sunflower seed butter and rinse out your food processor bowl.
- Then add your roasted pepitas to the food processor and puree until you get a flour/meal.
- Then add your pepita flour, eggs, coconut oil, honey, raisins, pecans, cinnamon, salt, and baking soda. Mix well.
- Pour your batter into 9 FULL muffin liners in your muffin tin. I lined my muffins tin with silicone muffin liners but paper would do just fine.
- Bake for 25-30 minutes until cooked through.
- Let cool slightly, but eat warm, because they are the best that way.
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More Nut Free Muffins:
Apple Cinnamon Muffins (nut free)
Chocolate Chip Protein Muffins (nut free)
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Hi Julie! Ive suffered with Acne for a very long time too. So i totally understand the frustration. The only thing I have ever found to help me was and is proactive and being consistent with it and making sure I use their moisturizer. My friend tried accutane and it didnt work. And there are a lot of side effects with it especially with your kidneys and liver. But I have heard a lot of success stories with it. My cousin used it and hasnt had a problem since. I wont take it bc Im just so hormonal and very sensitive to meds. PS Cuss your little heart out. We love it! We love you! So be you! Good luck!
I feel your pain with the acne suffering! I’m 28 and have had terrible acne since I was 12?…
After years of trying everything under the sun I have accidentally found something that really works: virgin coconut oil.
I’ve been eating a spoonful of it everyday and have noticed a CRAZY HUGE difference in my skin. People have been commenting on my skin – it’s that good.
Try it – I cant believe nobody suggested it to me before, it could have saved me years of tears, money, and agony.
Have you tried Chemical Peels like a Jessners or something similar? I get occasional break outs, but regular peels have ended those and made my skin much better. The peels help turn skin cells over and really clear out pores.
Hey Julie,
Just like Kristen posted, the Clarisonic Mia changed my life as well. Yes it is pricey, but it is worth every penny. I suffer from cystic acne that has left me with unsightly scars. After using the Mia once, my skin felt really clean and looked really smooth. I have been using the Mia for over a year and have had very few breakouts. Come to think of it, the only time I had a breakout is when I didn’t use the Mia for a few days in a row. I vote purchasing a Mia over taking Accutane. There are many class action lawsuits against the makers of Accutane due to the side effects it causes (you can check them out online if you Google them).
Accutane = hell on earth, at least for me. I did two rounds and the first was OK, but during the second I got the worst horrible cystic acne possible all over my face. It scarred me for life, literally and figuratively.
Finally at age 38 my skin has gotten much better. I credit the fermented cod liver / butter oil blend that I started on Liz Wolfe’s recommendation, plus loads of fermented foods (kraut and kefir, both homemade).
But in any event, I found my wonderful partner at a time in my life when my skin was not at its best, so don’t worry too much!
I was on Accutane for two years. In the beginning, it did not seem so bad, but then what you said in your post about depression and my lips practically coming off from peeling and having my my entire face peel happened.
Before accutane, I did not have any medical problems. NONE. Now I have hypothyroidism, IBS, severe anemia, and back pain (which has been checked by every doctor possible – gotten MRIs, EMGs.. everything) has been going on since after accutane – who knows if theres an correlation or not…
My skin is fabulously flawless now, but my body is not. I guess it was a tradeoff, and not one I would recommend to anyone.
ps. love your recipes-thanks taking the time to create them.
Hi Juli — I’ve struggled with cystic acne for 15+ years (ugh) and based on my experience with Accutane (twice!) would urge you to stay the hell away from that toxic stuff. There are lawsuits and FDA recalls out there right now for a reason, and I would take acne over permanently messing up my digestive system any day of the week (and would have chose to avoid the drug had I known that back then.) After two rounds of Accutane, my acne has come back each time, along with some pretty severe digestive symptoms and food allergies. I feel your pain — but Accutane is not worth it.
I did accutane awhile back, and told them up front that they didn’t have to worry about depression affecting me because I made it such a habit to listen to and read positive things every day. I was WRONG! I was thisclose to being suicidal for the last 3 months of my treatment when they increased the dose, and pretty much lost my personality during that time as well. My skin cleared up, then returned to about half as bad as it had been.
Have you tried clear.now? The ingredients are small enough to actually get in your pores and clean them, and there is a 6 month money back guarantee in case you don’t like the results. You can get it from improvedliving.biz (item# 701940)
Good luck to you, whatever you decide! btw, I enjoy your sense of humor, swear words and all!
I think you are really brave to post something like this struggle with the world. And chances are your acne isn’t as bad as you think. I took Accutane in high school and it worked wonders. I mean, it cleared my skin up within 3 weeks and it was absolutely 100% clear for about 2 years. Then standard stress, bad habits, college and the like gave me milk breakouts, but nothing BCP couldn’t control. I had beautiful skin for years until a traumatic incident left my hormones going crazy. I tried proactiv, vitamins, dietary changes and nothing. I finally went to a dermatologist and she told me I had HORMONAL ACNE all these years (if you break out around your chin and nose area, and are a women in her child-bearing years, chances are you have hormonal acne). She put me on a blood pressure med called SPIRONALACTONE (or Aldactone). It’s painless, ok to take for long periods of time and won’t affect your workouts or lifestyle. It has dramatically reduced my breakouts to the point where I am not thinking about my skin constantly or avoiding social contact and men. Please do yourself a favor and find a female dermatologist to discuss this treatment with. Having struggled with acne my whole adult life, spironolactone is worth checking out if you are sick of it. Good luck…keep on workin’ out and cooking like its nobody’s business 🙂
I took accutane when I was in high school (before I started eating Paleo) and after I finished my skin was AMAZING. So clear and soft, I couldn’t believe it. The dermatologist reccomended I get a facial by them after I’d completed the regime because everyone had reacted so great to doing that. Well that effed up my skin bad and it’s not been the same since. I have times when my skin is bad and times when its OK now. I also didn’t have any depression/excess drying issues etc. it all depends. Id try every other possible thing first though before doing accutane.
Julia* not Juliaju haha, stupid touchscreen..