I’m mad. Like, really f*cking mad. Ok, that’s a lie, I don’t really get mad, I just get sad. So, I’m really f*cking sad. My face was finally getting better, finally looking like something was changing and my face was starting to play nice, but NO. No, no,no. It ain’t playin’ nice no mo’. My face has freaked out. Like OMG Ihateyousomuchjuli. Iwantyoutostaysingleforever. Andidefinitelydontwantanyonetofindyouattractive. Ever.
You, my face, are a straight up b*tch.
Ugh, I’m going to get so many emails about my dirty mouth now. I’ll save you the time…please don’t send them.
Anywho, I’m having one of those days of feeling absolutely hopeless. I don’t know what to do. I clean up my diet and it gets a little bit better, then it goes back to normal. I change up my face cleansing routine and it gets a little better, then goes back to normal. I get off birth control, I stay on birth control. I take fish oil, I don’t take fish oil. I eat more fat, I eat less fat. I don’t eat dark chocolate, I do eat dark chocolate. I get facials, I don’t get facials. You get what I’m throwin’ out? I try everything, but in the end my face has full control, and I am left staring in the mirror with tears in my eyes, choking back the egg of frustration that sits in my throat.
Just today, I started taking the probiotic saccharomyce boulardii which was recommended by Liz of Cave Girl Eats. I also am getting cod liver oil soon to start trying that as well. And making sure all sugar and nuts are cut from my diet. It’s just so annoying that my mind has to be filled with thoughts of how ugly I am or how I wish I could improve my skin. That’s dumb. It should be filled with cookbook thoughts, and Christmas gift thoughts, and food thoughts. But no, the face has won.
So here’s my question out of utter frustration and anguish…do I try acutane? Do I face the fact that I may be incredibly depressed, moody, and upset for months because of the drug? Do I face the fact that I may have to take the drug even though my face and other body parts will literally dry up and peel off? Do I face the fact that it may not even work? I don’t know what to do, but I’m obviously upset enough to blab all about it and want some of your advice. So, advise me.
On a more positive note, you NEED to try these muffins. They are DELICIOUS.
Morning Glory Muffins (nut free option)
- Yield: 9 1x
Ingredients
- 1 apple, peeled and cored, shredded
- 1 large carrot, peeled
- 1/2 cup sunflower seed butter
- 1 cup pepitas
- 3 eggs, whisked
- 1/2 cup coconut oil, melted
- 1/4 cup raisins
- 1/4 cup pecans, roughly chopped (optional for nut free version)
- 1 tablespoon cinnamon
- 1 tablespoon raw honey
- 1/4 teaspoon baking soda
- pinch of salt
Instructions
- Preheat your oven to 350 degrees.
- Now add your pepitas to a small saucepan over medium heat with a tablespoon of fat. I used coconut oil.
- Cook for 3-5 minutes, moving around lots so they don’t burn and so they cook on all sides.
- While your pepitas are roasting, add your apple and carrot to your food processor with the shredding attachment. If you don’t have a food processor, use a grater to shred your apple and carrot.
- Add your apple and carrot to a bowl along with your sunflower seed butter and rinse out your food processor bowl.
- Then add your roasted pepitas to the food processor and puree until you get a flour/meal.
- Then add your pepita flour, eggs, coconut oil, honey, raisins, pecans, cinnamon, salt, and baking soda. Mix well.
- Pour your batter into 9 FULL muffin liners in your muffin tin. I lined my muffins tin with silicone muffin liners but paper would do just fine.
- Bake for 25-30 minutes until cooked through.
- Let cool slightly, but eat warm, because they are the best that way.
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Apple Cinnamon Muffins (nut free)
Chocolate Chip Protein Muffins (nut free)
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SOOO I’ve read through several of the comments above and I know they have awesome intentions since we all love you Juli, but you really can’t get a lot from our comments since:
A) the type of acne i have or another person may be totally different than you
B) Its impossible for us to know what the underlying cause is
C) You definitely don’t want to put any excess stress on your body by trying 100 different cleansers.
I tried 4 different dermatologists and cried for years about my acne. The solution for me finally came from oral antibiotics and sulfur cream. But it totally depends on your body chemistry and your allergies.
I suggest going to a new doctor (I assume you’ve tried a M.D. before) and get to the bottom of the issue, whether it be food allergy or something else.
Honestly, my gut feeling is that yes, diet helps, but there are SO MANY other factors that could be at play like your hormone balance.
So you pretty much described exactly the way I have felt for the past two years… I was DOWN about my face, my life, my diet blah blah blah, and it was all purely stemming from my bad skin. Which I didn’t have any problems with before. Grr. I just finished accutane, (four months) and honestly I had no trouble whatsoever. Dry lips, tiny bit of exzema on my arms and that was it! (Plus I totally didn’t have to wash my hair more than once a week because it NEVER got greasy… Bonus!) I’m left with loads of scars, but following a clean diet seems to be helping that. Can’t say whether it will come back obviously (fingers crossed not!!) but it’s really made a massive difference to my life. Dont wake up any more touching my face just to prepare myself for what I’m going to see in the mirror… and I don’t dread the gym in case the sweat causes my make up to run off my face… I know it has a lot of bad press (especially on here) but I really didn’t have any problems!
Can I just say though, all the photos you post on here, we can’t see any spots at all!!! Are you sure you have acne…? 😉
Could the breakout possibly just be a “purge”? I know you said you were doing the OCM. From what I understand, your face will look wonderful at first, and then you will experience the purging and terrible breakouts for a little, but on the other end is clear skin. ::shrug:: At least that’s what I read, and what I’m hoping for myself (just started OCM last week)
Not sure this will help, but I saw a big difference in acne around my face when I quit using toothpaste with sodium lauryl sulfate in it. Plus, my doctor put me on antibiotics for about 2 weeks. I’m not a proponent of antibiotics when not needed, but it did help. And now I only use ProNamel toothpaste. I’m not intentionally trying to sound like an infomercial, either. 🙂
I totally feel you on the acne! I’ve battled acne for 16 years and I’ve tried pretty much everything, including acutane. Nothing seems to work. However, I just did a pretty strict Paleo diet for five weeks and it got way better. I think it is a combo of corn and dairy that affect me. So I’m sticking with a pretty strict diet to see if I can figure it out. I’m also planning to do a liver and gall bladder cleanse/flush in the next few weeks because my naturopath says that can be part of the problem.
My advice on acutane is to not do it. I did it for 5 or 6 months and it worked. My face was clear and I was super happy, but then it all came back a few months later. It was so frustrating. I just put all of those crazy-horrible drugs into my system for no reason! I was so upset. However, I did not experience any of the crazy symptoms that are possible and the whole ordeal wasn’t as terrible as I thought it would be. But everyone is different, so who knows how your body will react.
And remember, there is so much more to you than your acne! I PROMISE! I met my husband when I was 30 pounds heavier and covered in gross acne…and sort of bitchy! If he was able to find a way to love me, there is definitely someone out there who will love you 🙂
Girl, I feel you. I’ll suggest you go to acne.org and try their product and method as a last attempt. We are all different so not every product works for every person, but i’d give it a shot. It did improve my skin. Also, no joke… meditation. It helps combat stress which might be a big part of why you’re breaking out. Again, all suggestions.
Have you tried coconut oil?? I’ve used it and it seems to be just like apple cider vinegar… It’s great for EVERYTHING!!!
Eggs are the devil for me with my skin. Have you ever tried eliminating them for a while to see what happens? Good luck!!
Juli-
-Don’t tell me no one will think you’re beautiful cause thats just bullshite. You look f’n beautiful to me 🙂 When i met my dear husband he had severe acne on his face neck, chest and back… Super bad, it hurt him and made himso self-conscious. But, he was and is AWESOME, so i dated him, married him, had 3 kids with him…blah blah.
He used accurate and it worked without side effects, but he’s a guy and they have different hormones. So not a recommendation, just what is 🙂
My skin went to crap after baby #2, I had acne places I never had before, took about 2 years, but finally stopped using everything… I use wet wash cloth with 3 drops of tea tree oil to wash twice a day and it cleared everything up…worth a shot
BTW you make me smile with every post, so thank you!!
Juli… try different birth controls!!!!! Stay away from acutane! There are so many different birth control pills that tweak your hormone levels this way or that (i’ve gone through many to find the right balance… trust me, there are so many but it is so worth it), that you can find the right one to minimize your acne and not make you crazy/bloat/etc! Since it sounds like you’ve tried everything else, why not give it a shot? You may go through a couple pills that make you crazy…. but you’ll find the right one and be sooooo much happier for it! I’d suggest the one I’m on, but each person reacts to each pill differently, so what works for me may not work for you. Your Dr should help you 🙂
Also, a (semi awkward) suggestion for now: moisturizer with salicylic acid ( I love aveeno clear complexion) to keep your whole face from drying out, and every so often, try poking a hole in them with a safety pin or needle- don’t pop- and wipe with rubbing alcohol to try and dry them out. It worked for a few friends!!
Good luck 🙂