I’m mad. Like, really f*cking mad. Ok, that’s a lie, I don’t really get mad, I just get sad. So, I’m really f*cking sad. My face was finally getting better, finally looking like something was changing and my face was starting to play nice, but NO. No, no,no. It ain’t playin’ nice no mo’. My face has freaked out. Like OMG Ihateyousomuchjuli. Iwantyoutostaysingleforever. Andidefinitelydontwantanyonetofindyouattractive. Ever.
You, my face, are a straight up b*tch.
Ugh, I’m going to get so many emails about my dirty mouth now. I’ll save you the time…please don’t send them.
Anywho, I’m having one of those days of feeling absolutely hopeless. I don’t know what to do. I clean up my diet and it gets a little bit better, then it goes back to normal. I change up my face cleansing routine and it gets a little better, then goes back to normal. I get off birth control, I stay on birth control. I take fish oil, I don’t take fish oil. I eat more fat, I eat less fat. I don’t eat dark chocolate, I do eat dark chocolate. I get facials, I don’t get facials. You get what I’m throwin’ out? I try everything, but in the end my face has full control, and I am left staring in the mirror with tears in my eyes, choking back the egg of frustration that sits in my throat.
Just today, I started taking the probiotic saccharomyce boulardii which was recommended by Liz of Cave Girl Eats. I also am getting cod liver oil soon to start trying that as well. And making sure all sugar and nuts are cut from my diet. It’s just so annoying that my mind has to be filled with thoughts of how ugly I am or how I wish I could improve my skin. That’s dumb. It should be filled with cookbook thoughts, and Christmas gift thoughts, and food thoughts. But no, the face has won.
So here’s my question out of utter frustration and anguish…do I try acutane? Do I face the fact that I may be incredibly depressed, moody, and upset for months because of the drug? Do I face the fact that I may have to take the drug even though my face and other body parts will literally dry up and peel off? Do I face the fact that it may not even work? I don’t know what to do, but I’m obviously upset enough to blab all about it and want some of your advice. So, advise me.
On a more positive note, you NEED to try these muffins. They are DELICIOUS.
Morning Glory Muffins (nut free option)
- Yield: 9 1x
Ingredients
- 1 apple, peeled and cored, shredded
- 1 large carrot, peeled
- 1/2 cup sunflower seed butter
- 1 cup pepitas
- 3 eggs, whisked
- 1/2 cup coconut oil, melted
- 1/4 cup raisins
- 1/4 cup pecans, roughly chopped (optional for nut free version)
- 1 tablespoon cinnamon
- 1 tablespoon raw honey
- 1/4 teaspoon baking soda
- pinch of salt
Instructions
- Preheat your oven to 350 degrees.
- Now add your pepitas to a small saucepan over medium heat with a tablespoon of fat. I used coconut oil.
- Cook for 3-5 minutes, moving around lots so they don’t burn and so they cook on all sides.
- While your pepitas are roasting, add your apple and carrot to your food processor with the shredding attachment. If you don’t have a food processor, use a grater to shred your apple and carrot.
- Add your apple and carrot to a bowl along with your sunflower seed butter and rinse out your food processor bowl.
- Then add your roasted pepitas to the food processor and puree until you get a flour/meal.
- Then add your pepita flour, eggs, coconut oil, honey, raisins, pecans, cinnamon, salt, and baking soda. Mix well.
- Pour your batter into 9 FULL muffin liners in your muffin tin. I lined my muffins tin with silicone muffin liners but paper would do just fine.
- Bake for 25-30 minutes until cooked through.
- Let cool slightly, but eat warm, because they are the best that way.
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Apple Cinnamon Muffins (nut free)
Chocolate Chip Protein Muffins (nut free)
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Sooo it looks like I’ll be in the minority here when I say this but I definitely would recommend accutane. It honestly changed my life. I struggled with TERRIBLE and very painful acne for a couple years. I finally got on accutane and after 6 months (with some minor depression, mood swings, and dry skin), my face cleared up and I haven’t struggled with it since!! I got a pimple last night and was totally shocked to see that this morning..if that tells you anything! I hope it all works out, because I feel ya girl!
I second primallifeorganics.com. My entire history with acne is in the blog section entitled “Love Letter to Primal Life Organics”. I did absolutely everything…EVERYTHING (accutane included-that is some seriously nasty shit)…to try to get rid of my acne. Primal life organics was the final piece of the puzzle on top of paleo. I personally have to go the autoimmune route as well for my underlying skin condition, but these products are the only things keeping my skin clear. I can’t say enough good things about them….amazing, simply amazing.
Someone may have already said this but I wouldn’t know cause I didn’t read through the bajillion comments.
1. It needs to be Green Pastures fermented cod liver oil/butter oil blend. My skin looked better after a week. No joke! The stuff is expensive so take out a loan, but it is worth it.
2. I take 8 capsules a day. I’m not saying you should take that much but it works for me and Cheeseslave says you should. So go do what Cheeseslave says you should.
Trust me. It is awesome! And I have absolutely nothing to gain from saying this.
Oh and coffee-
I’d actually say that’s your deal-breaker above all other things.
if that’s something you drink regularly, cut it OUT. Even 1/2 cup a day effects my acne, 1 cup+ a day and I’m officially broken out by the end of the day or next. Could be the caffeine and/or the acidity, but even now if I’m doing perfect on my diet, nothing makes me break out like coffee… Not even alcohol.
Definitely don’t do Accutane. Can/does cause life long hormone issues that you really don’t want to deal with. Nasty stuff.
PS… You’re effing hot, anyway.
I know people that are sensitive to red meat and that makes them break out 🙁 You may want to try that. Also, when I went off birth control my face went nuts… it was so gross. I juiced tons of veggies and ate so many salads… i cut back on fruit and ate more chicken and turkey. I drank tons of water and it cleared up quickly! Also this stuff changed my life
http://www.juicebeauty.com/store/skin-concern/blemished-oily.html
I feel your pain, Juli. I’m still struggling with depression and body image issues, and my skin isn’t cooperating either. I haven’t been officially diagnosed, but I’m pretty sure I have Raynaud’s too. I just started the autoimmune diet to see if it can help with some of these problems. I hope you find something that works for you.
I took Accutane when I was in high school. Yes, it was serious stuff, but as someone who suffered from horrific acne which impacted my self-esteem (I was the girl standing in front of the mirror with tears in my eyes…every. morning.), it was the best decision I have ever made. I didn’t have the psychological side effects, but good Lord…keep the chapstick and moisturizer handy. You will dry out like crazy. I was well monitored by doctors and did very regular check ups. 10 years after taking it, I have clear skin that I get compliments on.
OK….you’ve heard every angle, every story. Ultimately, you’ll decide what’s right for you. It’s different for everybody. My daughter (21), has been on 2 cycles of Accutane. Her skin looks fab right after, then it comes back several months later. She’s considering going for another round. She says all the same things you do. Ugh- she’s a moody you know what when she’s on it. She’s currently trying the Castor oil, hot towel method. Had some good results but the acne always seems to come back. I feel for you! I know this will mean nothing but I’ll say it anyway. You’re amazing- inside & out!! Don’t let your skin dictate how you feel. Would you let someone else do that to you? No you wouldn’t….so go be your awesome self and tell your acne to f*ck off!
I can say that I took a low dose(10-20 mg) a day, and didn’t have many side affects. My skin was dry while I took it, but I wasn’t depressed or moody, nor did my hair fall out. I would stick to a low dose though to minimize all of this. I think overall it’s worth it- much less harmful than daily stressing and crying. Also it’s the ONLY thing that worked for me- I tried all your remedies and more for years.