Bodies are weird. They’re weird AF. You can change your body fat, your muscle mass, your shape…all by altering a few things about your lifestyle. But then your body will decide to take on a life of it’s own, whether that’s through hormones or pregnancy or stress or menopause or age. For some, bodies change minimally throughout their life. For me, it’s changed a lot. And I’m at a point in my life where I’m able to look back and really marvel at each stage and understand the science experiment that I’ve been putting myself through for years now.
A handful of people have asked for before and after photos. But for me, I have beforeandafter beforeandafter beforeandafter photos that range all throughout my life. That starts before puberty then to starving and binging in my teen years to overeating sh*t food in college then to dabbling in exercise and being afraid of the gym then onto my CrossFit years that have yo-yo’d but never ended. So let’s take a glance down physical memory lane because I think it’s interesting as f*ck and honestly motivating for me to continue on my path and see what will happen in the future.
This photo above spans over 7 years, starting in 2009 on the left, 2010, 2012 then 3 weeks ago in 2016 on the right. My body weight has ranged from 150 pounds then to 125 pounds then up to 160 pounds and now I’m probably around 130 pounds (I only weigh myself once a year at the doctor to make sure I don’t mind f*ck myself).
The photo on the left is definitely at my unhealthiest. I was in college at the time, eating and drinking anything that was handed to me, not caring or knowing what “healthy” meant. Even though I was in Health and Exercise Science in school and knew a general amount of what was good for me, I was still in the high school mindset believing I could eat whatever I wanted and just burn the calories off to stay “skinny”. So at this point I was spending HOURS in the gym on the stairmaster, running for hours on the treadmill and doing some light lifting (but feeling very intimidated by the men in the weight room). I ran my first (and only) half marathon that year and I think that’s what got me started with understanding that dedication leads to something. I started off hardly able to run a mile and slowly increased my distance every day, ran through the winter months, until I was ready for a half marathon. And ended up finishing in under 2 hours, which I was super happy about.
Shortly after running that half marathon, I began to challenge myself to lift more and long story short, found out about CrossFit. I couldn’t do any of the movements because I wasn’t strong enough so I would look at CrossFit workouts on crossfit.com and modify them however I could. Push ups on my knees, pull ups and dips on the assisted machine, kettlebell swings with a dumbbell. Before I knew it, I was seeing strides in my own fitness with being able to do those movements unassisted. At that point, I decided to make the jump to a real CrossFit gym, doing my first competition 3 months later. When I was seeing all these improvements, I wanted more and had to face the facts that my diet was sh*t. Since CrossFit recommended paleo and/or Zone, I decided to try out Zone first then slowly worked my way into paleo. In the second photo, I was eating almost strict paleo (Monday – Friday) but still had some gluten free oats and peanut butter, but absolutely no gluten. When I dropped eating bread and pasta and anything gluten related, not only did I drop weight pretty quickly, but all the stomach issues I had growing up INSTANTLY went away. But even though I had changed my diet so drastically, I still ate sh*tty food on the weekends as my “cheat” days. I would eat nasty ass food like Oreos and pizza and chips and queso. And I would ruin all the strides I had made in the week and was back to feeling sick and awful by Monday. It was a really bad relationship with food at that point, which is why I never use the word cheat anymore when it comes to anything I eat. I was at my thinnest I had ever been but I wanted WAY more muscle and wanted a better relationship with food.
Once I started competing in CrossFit, I was hooked. I loved the nerves, loved the calm feeling before the 3,2,1GO, loved the cheering and camaraderie and the support for women lifting. I had finally found fitness that made sense to me. I didn’t want to run endless hours or count calories to make sure I burned them all off on a bike. I finally found a gym with no mirrors, no judgement, and no bullsh*t. CrossFit was the first place that empowered women because of what they were accomplishing in the gym and I had never felt that before. And I wanted to be part of that. So I started working out every day, rarely taking rest days and constantly increasing my weight load day to day. Every single day in the gym was me giving every single ounce of effort I had all in hopes of making it to CrossFit Games. And the more I worked out, the more results on saw; placing higher and higher at competitions. The third photo, in my white PaleOMG shirt, was actually taken at a competition that I won. I was so excited about my accomplishments, but I was absolutely 100% unhappy in my skin. I continued to gain weight, some muscle and some fat, and my hormonal acne because of lifting was out of f*cking control. I was so unhappy and really stuck with what to do: continue to compete and be unhappy, or end competing and see what happens. So I took the latter and started lifting lighter, taking more rest days, eating more of what I wanted (except for gluten) and being less stressed out.
What’s interesting about these photos is the second, third and fourth photo are all while eating paleo and all while doing CrossFit. The only thing that was different was my priorities and goals. I wanted to lift weights, I did it. I wanted to get better at CrossFit, I did it. I wanted to lose weight and be more comfortable in my skin, I did it. None of these stages came easy. They took blood, sweat and tears and seriously years to reach. It wasn’t a day change, it wasn’t a 30 day cleanse; it was figuring out what I wanted, learning what worked for my body, and constantly experimenting. And I’ll still be doing that for many years to come as my body changes and my priorities change. My point is, remember the big picture. Health and fitness is about the journey. It’s not about the perfect butt or perfect abs or perfect arms. It’s about always striving to be the best YOU. And what’s so awesome about it is that you can strive forever, until the day you die, to be a better version of yourself. Both mentally and physically. So stop obsessing over the little details and just start trying to be better and better, no matter what that better version is.
“Great works are performed not by strength but by perseverance.”
Sunday – Rest day
Monday –
18 mins to get 5 Rounds Of:
9 L- Pull Ups
9 Strict HSPU
14 KB Walking Lunges (2 x 70/2 x 45). Heavier than usual!!!
I got 4+3 using 45# kettlebells
Then 9 min Ladder Of: (3-6-9-12-15…)
Front Squats (185/125)
Burpees
I got 18+1 using 85#
Tuesday –
Every 30 sec for 10 mins: 1 x Snatch @ 70%. All reps must have a 3 sec pause at knee. (5-10# more than last time) – I used 90#
Then 16 min AMRAP Of:
500m Row
100 Double Unders
400m Run
I got 2 rounds + 225 meters into my third run
Wednesday –
Back Squats: 4 x 7. All sets at 74% (15 mins) – I used 125#
Then 12 min AMRAP Of:
9 Deadlift (225/155)
12 C2B Pull Ups
15 HRPU
I got 4+20 using 125#
Thursday – Rest day
Friday –
Deadlift: 4 x 7. All sets at 74%. Reset at bottom of all reps! (14 mins) – I used 165#
After each Set: 40 sec Top Of Dip Hold On Rings (in hollow)
Then 4min AMRAP Of:
5 Power Clean (225/155) and 15 Wall Ball
– 2min REST THEN –
4min AMRAP Of:
7 Power Clean (185/125) and 15 Wall Ball
– 2min REST THEN –
4min AMRAP Of:
9 Power Clean (155/105) and 15 Wall Ball
I got 3+6 (105#); 2+12 (95#); 2+9 (85#)
Saturday –
With a partner complete: (one person working at a time)
100 calorie row
100 lateral burpees over the bar
100 thruster (135/95)
100 toes to bar
100 lateral burpees over the bar
100 calorie row
We finished in 35:45 using 55#
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At Home or Hotel Gym Workout:
5 rounds for time:
20 jumping lunges
15 pike push ups
10 v-ups
3 minutes rest
5 rounds for time:
20 tuck jumps
15 hand release push ups
10 leg lifts
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I’m 39weeks and 3days pregnant. I could literally give birth at any moment Haha… I’ve followed your blog for years and never commented. But I have come to appreciate your blog and posts SO much more recently. Being pregnant is just crazy af. And I’ve really struggled to be okay with how much my body has changed this time around, but I have been so thankful for your posts and your body positivemessage. I can tell that you strive for balance, enjoyment, etc… I appreciate that you appreciate delicious food (I stalk your instagram daily so I know this is true) and that you continue to push yourself mentally and physically. I have struggled off and on with such an UNHEALTHY relationship with food and gym, etc. But I feel through keeping up with you over the last 9 months I am starting to genuinely understand what a lifestyle change is.
Thank you, Julie. I am seriously SO GRATEFUL.
that’s so amazing to hear, meg! i know that if i ever have kids, i will REALLY struggle with the body changes and i’ll have to deal with that, being sure to keep the best relationship with food and fitness. but it’s on ongoing process and the goal is to always be better than yesterday! keep up the good work and hope labor goes smoothly!!
Hey Meg! I gave birth 10 months ago…and it took a good 6 months for me to really start seeing the baby weight come off. The old adage 9 months on 9 months off is pretty true! Interestingly, I found myself not as concerned as I thought I would be with my post baby body. I think I’ve been able to accept that this time is about my daughter and focusing on being as healthy as I can for HER (still nursing). I just don’t see the point in stressing over what I look like (vs being healthy and getting strength back etc) since a lot of it is out of my control with the hormones and everything. Anyways, thought that might help ya. All the best to you and your little one!
Funny, I remember 10 years ago after I gave birth I easily lost the weight. Worked out hard and ate right, but it came off relatively quickly. Fast forward 10 years, it doesn’t come off so fast now. With age, and non-baby weight, it’s a lot harder to lose.
at 34 with 3 kids in the last 6 yrs..and non stop breastfeeding I decided to start lifting and working out. LOL…the initial weight dropped and I have stalled for almost 18 months with little muscle gain. I am not fat but not as lean or muscular as I would like either. I have gained irregular periods and funky @ss skin. So freaking over it all. I have tried all variations of eating and non eating and nothing changes. So frustrated to see so little results for all my hard work. It is nice to see and hear this .
Awesome post, Juli! Thanks for sharing. You’re beautiful in all phases, but I am happy that you have finally found peace in your own skin.
Wow! That’s really interesting Julie. I think the look you have right now is your best look, you look fit and happy! Can I ask how tall you are? I am 5’7″ and in my head I was thinking I would need to be about 130-135 to get the look I have always wanted. I have to tell you, your bathing suit pictures from your honeymoon really inspired me to get back to weight lifting. I have had analysis paralysis going on with all the different programs out there I keep getting emails for. I lost 40 lbs. once and was in the best shape of my life lifting weights, but I think I have been looking for the easy way out when I know deep down what the answer is to get the fit look I want. You are very inspiring and it’s nice to see that a “normal” person (not a fitness professional), can look the way you do by eating healthy and putting in the work. Great Job! 🙂
i am 5’7 too!!
Thank you Julie… I really appreciate this article. I find some days I feel really discouraged when I don’t see any changes despite all my efforts and this article is a great reminder that it’s all about the long run. Health and fitness is a commitment for life!
I love this post today. I have been dealing with body image issues my whole life thinking that to look skinny is to be skinny. Being a personal trainer and having two degrees in exercise science and kinesiology has really helped me better understand that the body responds differently to different things and every body responds differently. Seeing the changes you have made over the last few years is inspiring because it shows us that with hard work and dedication we can reach our goals and still eat well and exercise but do not need to always be focused on being the strongest. I am at a point where I feel good, but even with eating paleo I need to cut back on the “cheat” meals I have over the weekend. Thanks for the inspiration!
You’re an inspiration to me. I’m a bit older than you, but find much in common with your journey–although, I still admire Crossfit from afar. Thanks much!
You are such an inspiration! I love all of your exercise, food and fashion blogs! Keep on keeping girl 🙂
Love this! I actually just got done with my second fitness competition. Not for everyone, but I thought it was a lot of fun! The thing is, the first time I did it I starved myself, had no life, and really not much confidence. In four years I figured out how important it is to treat your body right so that it runs right, not just so it looks good. By putting that into practice I was able to compete again, not have to lose my life to do so, and came out looking better than I could have ever hoped! I also CrossFit and try to stick to more whole foods/what works for my body (not full-on paleo anymore, but it’s just based on what I can tolerate). Anyway, this is kind of rambly but I am just so happy to finally have figured out to listen to how you feel and what your body is telling you, and it will truly respond, no matter what the goal is!
This came in perfect timing. Yesterday I was so upset about how hard I was working out and seeing zero results. My husband encouraged me that it takes time and that I was doing great. To keep going even after I reach my goal by setting a new goal. I am so encouraged by your story and I thank you for sharing it. Maybe I need to try something a little different until I find what works best for me.
definitely keep trying new things until you find your perfect fit!