Bodies are weird. They’re weird AF. You can change your body fat, your muscle mass, your shape…all by altering a few things about your lifestyle. But then your body will decide to take on a life of it’s own, whether that’s through hormones or pregnancy or stress or menopause or age. For some, bodies change minimally throughout their life. For me, it’s changed a lot. And I’m at a point in my life where I’m able to look back and really marvel at each stage and understand the science experiment that I’ve been putting myself through for years now.
A handful of people have asked for before and after photos. But for me, I have beforeandafter beforeandafter beforeandafter photos that range all throughout my life. That starts before puberty then to starving and binging in my teen years to overeating sh*t food in college then to dabbling in exercise and being afraid of the gym then onto my CrossFit years that have yo-yo’d but never ended. So let’s take a glance down physical memory lane because I think it’s interesting as f*ck and honestly motivating for me to continue on my path and see what will happen in the future.
This photo above spans over 7 years, starting in 2009 on the left, 2010, 2012 then 3 weeks ago in 2016 on the right. My body weight has ranged from 150 pounds then to 125 pounds then up to 160 pounds and now I’m probably around 130 pounds (I only weigh myself once a year at the doctor to make sure I don’t mind f*ck myself).
The photo on the left is definitely at my unhealthiest. I was in college at the time, eating and drinking anything that was handed to me, not caring or knowing what “healthy” meant. Even though I was in Health and Exercise Science in school and knew a general amount of what was good for me, I was still in the high school mindset believing I could eat whatever I wanted and just burn the calories off to stay “skinny”. So at this point I was spending HOURS in the gym on the stairmaster, running for hours on the treadmill and doing some light lifting (but feeling very intimidated by the men in the weight room). I ran my first (and only) half marathon that year and I think that’s what got me started with understanding that dedication leads to something. I started off hardly able to run a mile and slowly increased my distance every day, ran through the winter months, until I was ready for a half marathon. And ended up finishing in under 2 hours, which I was super happy about.
Shortly after running that half marathon, I began to challenge myself to lift more and long story short, found out about CrossFit. I couldn’t do any of the movements because I wasn’t strong enough so I would look at CrossFit workouts on crossfit.com and modify them however I could. Push ups on my knees, pull ups and dips on the assisted machine, kettlebell swings with a dumbbell. Before I knew it, I was seeing strides in my own fitness with being able to do those movements unassisted. At that point, I decided to make the jump to a real CrossFit gym, doing my first competition 3 months later. When I was seeing all these improvements, I wanted more and had to face the facts that my diet was sh*t. Since CrossFit recommended paleo and/or Zone, I decided to try out Zone first then slowly worked my way into paleo. In the second photo, I was eating almost strict paleo (Monday – Friday) but still had some gluten free oats and peanut butter, but absolutely no gluten. When I dropped eating bread and pasta and anything gluten related, not only did I drop weight pretty quickly, but all the stomach issues I had growing up INSTANTLY went away. But even though I had changed my diet so drastically, I still ate sh*tty food on the weekends as my “cheat” days. I would eat nasty ass food like Oreos and pizza and chips and queso. And I would ruin all the strides I had made in the week and was back to feeling sick and awful by Monday. It was a really bad relationship with food at that point, which is why I never use the word cheat anymore when it comes to anything I eat. I was at my thinnest I had ever been but I wanted WAY more muscle and wanted a better relationship with food.
Once I started competing in CrossFit, I was hooked. I loved the nerves, loved the calm feeling before the 3,2,1GO, loved the cheering and camaraderie and the support for women lifting. I had finally found fitness that made sense to me. I didn’t want to run endless hours or count calories to make sure I burned them all off on a bike. I finally found a gym with no mirrors, no judgement, and no bullsh*t. CrossFit was the first place that empowered women because of what they were accomplishing in the gym and I had never felt that before. And I wanted to be part of that. So I started working out every day, rarely taking rest days and constantly increasing my weight load day to day. Every single day in the gym was me giving every single ounce of effort I had all in hopes of making it to CrossFit Games. And the more I worked out, the more results on saw; placing higher and higher at competitions. The third photo, in my white PaleOMG shirt, was actually taken at a competition that I won. I was so excited about my accomplishments, but I was absolutely 100% unhappy in my skin. I continued to gain weight, some muscle and some fat, and my hormonal acne because of lifting was out of f*cking control. I was so unhappy and really stuck with what to do: continue to compete and be unhappy, or end competing and see what happens. So I took the latter and started lifting lighter, taking more rest days, eating more of what I wanted (except for gluten) and being less stressed out.
What’s interesting about these photos is the second, third and fourth photo are all while eating paleo and all while doing CrossFit. The only thing that was different was my priorities and goals. I wanted to lift weights, I did it. I wanted to get better at CrossFit, I did it. I wanted to lose weight and be more comfortable in my skin, I did it. None of these stages came easy. They took blood, sweat and tears and seriously years to reach. It wasn’t a day change, it wasn’t a 30 day cleanse; it was figuring out what I wanted, learning what worked for my body, and constantly experimenting. And I’ll still be doing that for many years to come as my body changes and my priorities change. My point is, remember the big picture. Health and fitness is about the journey. It’s not about the perfect butt or perfect abs or perfect arms. It’s about always striving to be the best YOU. And what’s so awesome about it is that you can strive forever, until the day you die, to be a better version of yourself. Both mentally and physically. So stop obsessing over the little details and just start trying to be better and better, no matter what that better version is.
“Great works are performed not by strength but by perseverance.”
Sunday – Rest day
Monday –
18 mins to get 5 Rounds Of:
9 L- Pull Ups
9 Strict HSPU
14 KB Walking Lunges (2 x 70/2 x 45). Heavier than usual!!!
I got 4+3 using 45# kettlebells
Then 9 min Ladder Of: (3-6-9-12-15…)
Front Squats (185/125)
Burpees
I got 18+1 using 85#
Tuesday –
Every 30 sec for 10 mins: 1 x Snatch @ 70%. All reps must have a 3 sec pause at knee. (5-10# more than last time) – I used 90#
Then 16 min AMRAP Of:
500m Row
100 Double Unders
400m Run
I got 2 rounds + 225 meters into my third run
Wednesday –
Back Squats: 4 x 7. All sets at 74% (15 mins) – I used 125#
Then 12 min AMRAP Of:
9 Deadlift (225/155)
12 C2B Pull Ups
15 HRPU
I got 4+20 using 125#
Thursday – Rest day
Friday –
Deadlift: 4 x 7. All sets at 74%. Reset at bottom of all reps! (14 mins) – I used 165#
After each Set: 40 sec Top Of Dip Hold On Rings (in hollow)
Then 4min AMRAP Of:
5 Power Clean (225/155) and 15 Wall Ball
– 2min REST THEN –
4min AMRAP Of:
7 Power Clean (185/125) and 15 Wall Ball
– 2min REST THEN –
4min AMRAP Of:
9 Power Clean (155/105) and 15 Wall Ball
I got 3+6 (105#); 2+12 (95#); 2+9 (85#)
Saturday –
With a partner complete: (one person working at a time)
100 calorie row
100 lateral burpees over the bar
100 thruster (135/95)
100 toes to bar
100 lateral burpees over the bar
100 calorie row
We finished in 35:45 using 55#
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At Home or Hotel Gym Workout:
5 rounds for time:
20 jumping lunges
15 pike push ups
10 v-ups
3 minutes rest
5 rounds for time:
20 tuck jumps
15 hand release push ups
10 leg lifts
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I love you because you eat and cook like a rock star. None of this weird diet stuff. You even CHEAT. But you mostly stick to it and stay at the gym and look great.
At first I looked at the pic on the left and was like, hell, she has great genes. Then I realized that you were younger in that pic- like all young people with a body that could take some abuse and still wear a bikini. I imagine if you had stayed on the unhealthy train… you would probably not be in a bikini with visible abs.
So I love it- hard work, dedication and a good dose of enjoying food in a healthy way really does pay off.
Great post, Juli! I got very into CrossFit about 2 and a half years ago, after having never done anything in the way of exercise and having zero muscle tone following my college drinking/eating/generally immobile days. I thought the transformation my body was taking was awesome, but about 6 months ago I started to feel like I looked “swollen”. There’s no other real word for it. I took a month off to try to reevaluate what I needed to do to make my body feel best. There’s a constant struggle to do CrossFit workouts with the prescribed heavy weights, especially when you know you can. Reading your posts made me realize there’s no shame in cutting back on the weight and in modifying things on occasion. I’ve continued doing the exercises I love and with the community I love doing them with, while also feeling better about my own self image. Your blog is constant motivation and your snaps are hilarious – love it!
it’s a hard pill to swallow when you know you can do more, but your happiness is more important than what is written on the board, remember that!
Truly inspiring Juli! Thank you for always being so real, it has helped me through body weight issues I have struggled with because I know that there are so many woman feeling the same way.
This is so freaking brilliant! I’ve been going through these same stages. So excited to get some clarity on what I want and how to move forward. Thanks so much for sharing this!
Great post again Juli and I think you actually answered my question that I asked you in your last post. I need to find what works for me and I think a lot of the time it’s hormonal problems that’s making me not lose the weight I’ve gained recently, so nice to know that you’ve kind of went up and down too. I was always skinny til a certain age but have never had the ‘abs’ phase, but suppose can’t have it all. I guess I need to get to what makes me happy and if that means a few pounds heavier so be it. You look fab by the way.
Thank you for sharing. It is strangely comforting to know that we all struggle with finding balance and trying to be happy in our own skin.
that’s exactly why i share that stuff! i feel the same way knowing that others have gone through the same issues i have!
Thank you for this post! It’s a great reminder to always keep your goals in mind, and to consciously act to reach those goals with every action. It’s not easy putting yourself out there, but you are inspiration!
This is awesome, Juli! Your picture story shows all of your different goals and priorities over the years. You really look great at any weight, I’m just glad that you found the balance that brings you the most happiness!
My twins are almost 18 months old and I went through a huge “puffy” phase after I had them where I was SO not myself. I’m finally getting out of it, it just takes time. It’s amazing how many seasons of life women go through physically, hormonally, and emotionally. We are so complex! I know I’m still holding onto a little bit of extra weight from breastfeeding that will hopefully go away. It is what it is.
Your workout posts always inspire me to work hard, but not be ashamed to modify a little bit and take rest when needed. I love your mindset!
the women’s body, especially when it comes to bringing children into the world, is so amazing. keep at it and you’ll definitely continue to see your body change. if you’ve read my blog for very long, you know i’m not keen on having children, but a part of me wants to have children just to see how my body changes and prove that women can continue to work hard after children. keep up the hard work!
Um… is it bad that I really want you to get preggers someday just so I can read about it in your blog and see pics of you going through all those changes, because I for one would be super entertained by that LOL!!?
that’s fair. i’m sure it would be incredibly entertaining
Thank you for sharing your journey! You have had an amazing transformation. It’s really interesting the change between photo 3 and 4. You lifted less, took more rest days and ate more? You lost 30 pounds between those photos. Was it all muscle or body fat too? What food-skin issues were you having?
it was muscle as well as fat that i lost between photos 3 and 4, but i can’t tell you exactly since i never measured all that. i was definitely have hormonal acne issues from lifting, it wasn’t food related then. now i have to stay away from eggs to help keep my skin clear.
Great post. I am just getting started in lifting weight and wanting to tone up without bulking up too much. I don’t live close to a crossfit gym, so I am loving your at home workouts. Could you do a post with a variety of at-home workouts for someone just getting started? You have my dream body!
maybe someday! every monday i post these at home workouts so definitely check back at more monday posts!