Bodies are weird. They’re weird AF. You can change your body fat, your muscle mass, your shape…all by altering a few things about your lifestyle. But then your body will decide to take on a life of it’s own, whether that’s through hormones or pregnancy or stress or menopause or age. For some, bodies change minimally throughout their life. For me, it’s changed a lot. And I’m at a point in my life where I’m able to look back and really marvel at each stage and understand the science experiment that I’ve been putting myself through for years now.
A handful of people have asked for before and after photos. But for me, I have beforeandafter beforeandafter beforeandafter photos that range all throughout my life. That starts before puberty then to starving and binging in my teen years to overeating sh*t food in college then to dabbling in exercise and being afraid of the gym then onto my CrossFit years that have yo-yo’d but never ended. So let’s take a glance down physical memory lane because I think it’s interesting as f*ck and honestly motivating for me to continue on my path and see what will happen in the future.

This photo above spans over 7 years, starting in 2009 on the left, 2010, 2012 then 3 weeks ago in 2016 on the right. My body weight has ranged from 150 pounds then to 125 pounds then up to 160 pounds and now I’m probably around 130 pounds (I only weigh myself once a year at the doctor to make sure I don’t mind f*ck myself).
The photo on the left is definitely at my unhealthiest. I was in college at the time, eating and drinking anything that was handed to me, not caring or knowing what “healthy” meant. Even though I was in Health and Exercise Science in school and knew a general amount of what was good for me, I was still in the high school mindset believing I could eat whatever I wanted and just burn the calories off to stay “skinny”. So at this point I was spending HOURS in the gym on the stairmaster, running for hours on the treadmill and doing some light lifting (but feeling very intimidated by the men in the weight room). I ran my first (and only) half marathon that year and I think that’s what got me started with understanding that dedication leads to something. I started off hardly able to run a mile and slowly increased my distance every day, ran through the winter months, until I was ready for a half marathon. And ended up finishing in under 2 hours, which I was super happy about.
Shortly after running that half marathon, I began to challenge myself to lift more and long story short, found out about CrossFit. I couldn’t do any of the movements because I wasn’t strong enough so I would look at CrossFit workouts on crossfit.com and modify them however I could. Push ups on my knees, pull ups and dips on the assisted machine, kettlebell swings with a dumbbell. Before I knew it, I was seeing strides in my own fitness with being able to do those movements unassisted. At that point, I decided to make the jump to a real CrossFit gym, doing my first competition 3 months later. When I was seeing all these improvements, I wanted more and had to face the facts that my diet was sh*t. Since CrossFit recommended paleo and/or Zone, I decided to try out Zone first then slowly worked my way into paleo. In the second photo, I was eating almost strict paleo (Monday – Friday) but still had some gluten free oats and peanut butter, but absolutely no gluten. When I dropped eating bread and pasta and anything gluten related, not only did I drop weight pretty quickly, but all the stomach issues I had growing up INSTANTLY went away. But even though I had changed my diet so drastically, I still ate sh*tty food on the weekends as my “cheat” days. I would eat nasty ass food like Oreos and pizza and chips and queso. And I would ruin all the strides I had made in the week and was back to feeling sick and awful by Monday. It was a really bad relationship with food at that point, which is why I never use the word cheat anymore when it comes to anything I eat. I was at my thinnest I had ever been but I wanted WAY more muscle and wanted a better relationship with food.
Once I started competing in CrossFit, I was hooked. I loved the nerves, loved the calm feeling before the 3,2,1GO, loved the cheering and camaraderie and the support for women lifting. I had finally found fitness that made sense to me. I didn’t want to run endless hours or count calories to make sure I burned them all off on a bike. I finally found a gym with no mirrors, no judgement, and no bullsh*t. CrossFit was the first place that empowered women because of what they were accomplishing in the gym and I had never felt that before. And I wanted to be part of that. So I started working out every day, rarely taking rest days and constantly increasing my weight load day to day. Every single day in the gym was me giving every single ounce of effort I had all in hopes of making it to CrossFit Games. And the more I worked out, the more results on saw; placing higher and higher at competitions. The third photo, in my white PaleOMG shirt, was actually taken at a competition that I won. I was so excited about my accomplishments, but I was absolutely 100% unhappy in my skin. I continued to gain weight, some muscle and some fat, and my hormonal acne because of lifting was out of f*cking control. I was so unhappy and really stuck with what to do: continue to compete and be unhappy, or end competing and see what happens. So I took the latter and started lifting lighter, taking more rest days, eating more of what I wanted (except for gluten) and being less stressed out.
What’s interesting about these photos is the second, third and fourth photo are all while eating paleo and all while doing CrossFit. The only thing that was different was my priorities and goals. I wanted to lift weights, I did it. I wanted to get better at CrossFit, I did it. I wanted to lose weight and be more comfortable in my skin, I did it. None of these stages came easy. They took blood, sweat and tears and seriously years to reach. It wasn’t a day change, it wasn’t a 30 day cleanse; it was figuring out what I wanted, learning what worked for my body, and constantly experimenting. And I’ll still be doing that for many years to come as my body changes and my priorities change. My point is, remember the big picture. Health and fitness is about the journey. It’s not about the perfect butt or perfect abs or perfect arms. It’s about always striving to be the best YOU. And what’s so awesome about it is that you can strive forever, until the day you die, to be a better version of yourself. Both mentally and physically. So stop obsessing over the little details and just start trying to be better and better, no matter what that better version is.
“Great works are performed not by strength but by perseverance.”
Sunday – Rest day
Monday –
18 mins to get 5 Rounds Of:
9 L- Pull Ups
9 Strict HSPU
14 KB Walking Lunges (2 x 70/2 x 45). Heavier than usual!!!
I got 4+3 using 45# kettlebells
Then 9 min Ladder Of: (3-6-9-12-15…)
Front Squats (185/125)
Burpees
I got 18+1 using 85#
Tuesday –
Every 30 sec for 10 mins: 1 x Snatch @ 70%. All reps must have a 3 sec pause at knee. (5-10# more than last time) – I used 90#
Then 16 min AMRAP Of:
500m Row
100 Double Unders
400m Run
I got 2 rounds + 225 meters into my third run
Wednesday –
Back Squats: 4 x 7. All sets at 74% (15 mins) – I used 125#
Then 12 min AMRAP Of:
9 Deadlift (225/155)
12 C2B Pull Ups
15 HRPU
I got 4+20 using 125#
Thursday – Rest day
Friday –
Deadlift: 4 x 7. All sets at 74%. Reset at bottom of all reps! (14 mins) – I used 165#
After each Set: 40 sec Top Of Dip Hold On Rings (in hollow)
Then 4min AMRAP Of:
5 Power Clean (225/155) and 15 Wall Ball
– 2min REST THEN –
4min AMRAP Of:
7 Power Clean (185/125) and 15 Wall Ball
– 2min REST THEN –
4min AMRAP Of:
9 Power Clean (155/105) and 15 Wall Ball
I got 3+6 (105#); 2+12 (95#); 2+9 (85#)
Saturday –
With a partner complete: (one person working at a time)
100 calorie row
100 lateral burpees over the bar
100 thruster (135/95)
100 toes to bar
100 lateral burpees over the bar
100 calorie row
We finished in 35:45 using 55#
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At Home or Hotel Gym Workout:
5 rounds for time:
20 jumping lunges
15 pike push ups
10 v-ups
3 minutes rest
5 rounds for time:
20 tuck jumps
15 hand release push ups
10 leg lifts
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Thank you for this. You truly are my inspiration.
I’m such a paleomg fan and just have to comment this time! I was listening to a paleo podcast recently that you did maybe sometime in the last year and you were talking about your weight loss. In the interview, you mentioned that you don’t RX your workouts all the time because your body doesn’t want to do 125lb snatches every time there are snatches…and you just do what feels right for you that day in the gym even if it’s less than the prescribed weight. And that was the first time I realized it was “okay” not to RX. I don’t know who I’ve been trying to ‘prove’ my xfit ability to (mind you, I have absolutely no aspirations to be a crossfit competitor) but let me tell you – 75lb overhead squats feel better on my body personally than 95lb squats and I literally just realized I’ve been pushing myself a little too much and never resting and I don’t have to do that. Isn’t it funny how much control you have over your life and your decisions and sometimes you can just forget? So, great job on your fitness journey. I love the idea of weighing oneself rarely. Will be taking a few more pointers from you.
PS I made your smoky candied bacon for the first time last week for a brunch and got mad praise for it. Thanks 🙂
i think as motivated people, we are constantly trying to prove to others that we work hard, whether that’s through how many hours we put in at work, how put together we look, how much weight we throw over our heads, etc. but in the end, it doesn’t matter what people think. they will all think different things depending on the person so we might as well do exactly what makes US happy. and the weighing ourselves stuff, i hate it. it’s always cool to see results but it’s sometimes better to FEEL results. which is one of the reasons i love crossfit and the no mirrors situation haha. glad i could help in some small way!
You look beautiful in all of the photos, but I think it’s so interesting that each one of them has a different story. It goes to show that you work so hard and you have such perseverance, drive, ambition and motivation that is so inspiring! It’s all about the mental and spiritual journey, not just physical!
I love you for this! Sharing your journey with others is so motivating and inspiring. Thank you for sharing!
i just appreciate the crap out of you. your honesty and candor are so desirable at a point where we are so fixated on how we get from fat to lean in twenty minutes. it is a journey and a process; much more like a marathon. but dont run the marathon for crying out loud because, cardio! haha. thank you, again, for sharing your message and for spreading love of self throughout out all of it.
I totally agree with everything you’ve said here. It’s amazing how being kind to our bodies can actually make bigger changes than all the dedication in the world. I’ve followed you since the beginning when I first heard about paleo. It was so easy for me to get caught up in being strict and in seeing changes get obsessive. Like you chilling out a tad and actually listening to my body has helped me get closer to what I want to look like (or maybe I’m just more accepting I don’t know) either way it feels better. I have two kids and I got so down after having them with my body changes but now since relaxing and not being so hard on myself I know if and when I have more that in time I’ll be back to my normal. Thanks for the recipes and the honesty. You rock.
Juli,
I follow your blog, snapchat, instagram, etc. and think you’re incredible! I’ve been making your recipes often–my family is crazy for your 5 ingredient spaghetti pie. Thank you for your honesty. You’re definitely inspiring a me to feel more in control of a healthier life, especially by realizing MORE is not always better. I finally feel freer to take more rest days and completely abandon my former obsessive calorie counting ways.
In your snap chat, I’ve spied flowered shoes while you walk Jackson–can you tell me what they are??
they are a brand called soda! i got them last year but they may still be available out there somewhere!
This is so great, thanks for putting this out into the world. More people need to have a real life approach and mindset when it comes to health and fitness.
Great post. Do you have any recommendations on how to not lift too heavy at crossfit? Sounds like a dumb question but I just feel like the stronger you get, the more motivation you have to keep going up in weight. How do you know when you’ve hit a good point and do you just always do that same weight as the different WODs come around?
I’ve been doing crossfit for about a year now and I love the workouts and know I’m gaining muscle but really don’t want to get too bulky. It just feels so good when you get new PRs so I’m just wondering how you started lifting less instead of continuing to go up in weight each week/month…
honestly, there is no rhyme or reason when it comes to choosing weights. especially because everyone’s body is so different. i know MANY females that lift heavy and aren’t “bulky”. so what i did when changing my weights was I stuck with weights that i knew i could have PERFECT form with for multiple reps. so instead of doing singles of 95# power snatch, i would use 75# and keep my form perfect throughout. at some point, i was able to figure out what weights i could do with completely perfect form, and i stuck with those. sometimes i go heavier, sometimes i go lighter. but i just had to remind me that i wasn’t in the point in my life anymore that the most important thing was PR’s. i was more so interested in being healthier and more comfortable in my skin.
Thank you so much for sharing this with me! I have never been athletic but I want to be strong for once in my life. Taking the time to give us a workout schedule is so helpful! Love, love this blog!